I am so useless

I swear, I must be the biggest idiot in the whole world. I can't do anything right. I can't cook, I can't clean. I don't know how to be a good parent. I can't be a good wife. I am a terrible friend, I have no imagination and I can't manage to make anyone I know happy. I can't please my husband, I can't make the kids be good. I can't keep the house clean enough. I don't do enough with the kids. I don't hang out with the right people my husband wants me to hang out with. I drink too much. I eat too much. I don't exercise enough. I'm tired of trying to do anything anymore. I can't get any of it right, so why should I try? I will never ever be good enough. I will never do or be what anyone needs me to be. I think the only person that would care if I wasn't here any more is my oldest son. I want to write, and I talk to hubby about it, about ideas for things, and I get treated like an idiot. I don't know anything, and I can't do anything right. Why do I even try. I wish I could just give in and give up properly. Nothing I do will ever be good enough for him. Nothing. I just don't understand it. He claims that he does everything to make me happy, but I never do anything for him. I find that very very difficult to believe as I do nothing but try to make him happy. I can never be enough for him as I am. I am constantly expected to change, while he gets to keep going exactly like he wants to. How is that fucking fair?