Busy, Busy, Busy

I know, I know...it's been too long since I updated here. I've been busy! Full time student, full time mom and wife, duties never ending. I've written 2 papers, had 4 math tests, one Metallurgy mid-term, and am working on a second test plate for welding. A's all across the board, as far as I can tell. I'm frustrated beyond belief about the health care bill, and I can't talk to anyone about it. I'm paranoid that I will never be able to find a job because unemployment is so high. The pundits are talking as if this recession is over already, and the greedy wall street bastards are raking in the dough again. Meanwhile, my friend and her husband can't short sell their home, because the greedy bank doesn't want to take a loss, and the real estate bubble is getting ready to expand again, at least in Arizona.
My life feels like it's falling apart again, and there is nothing I can do to keep the pieces together. I feel incredibly guilty that I don't have a job, and it doesn't help that my husband won't do a damn thing to try and make me feel less guilty. Like it's my fault that I can't find a job, that I can't even get an interview. I don't understand. Oh, and because I feel so miserable, our love life has suffered, and the guilt just continues to pile on top of me, without end. Yea! It's all my fault, and everything that keeps happening just keeps on reinforcing the negatives in my life. I have no friends, and the ones that I do have, don't seem to want to talk to me. I can't make new friends at school, because if I do, my husband will think I'm sleeping with them. Talk about a conundrum.